Time and space?

So it is said that Time and space heal all wounds....
Is it true? I think not....
There are wounds that just never heal.
Time and space just causes it to fester....
The hurt increases the pain multiplies.
There are just wounds that never heal.
Verily, i am inflicted with one such wound....

There was a period of time i thought that it had begun healing, begun mending.
I was so wrong ( as usual )
In fact all time and space had done was cover it up with surface events, like a bandage.
Until finally time came to change it, the wound only looked worse. it festered....

Yet strangely how do you amputate that which is not there?

What escapes do i have left? Death perhaps?
What choices do i have left for even a semblance of healing?

In trying to walk away, in trying to move on, i only found myself coming back full circle to a wound torn deeper and bleeding even heavier.

Truly how do i move on from here?
How do you get over letting go that special one that comes once in a lifetime?
That makes everything better by just being there.

How do you move on knowing that anything else that happens next will never compare to her?

how to move from finding your calling in god, and because of selfish and stupid reasons, you turn your back on that calling?

Where do you go from saying no to god?

Truly i say this in all solemnity and in all seriousness, i am not able to love any one else anymore.
not out of choice, of denying a person.
But purely because i can never love anyone else.... not after ada.

Do i live? No...
i exist.... but i do not live anymore....

never again....